2010 was a trivial year. It was plagued with heartache and hopelessness. Failure and frustration. I fought through the pain of loosing a family member and the repercussions of failing my first semester of college. Boys strolled in and out of my life quicker than the camera flash that captured their memory. I experienced the short end of adultery without the slightest clue as to what was going on. Trust was taken advantage of, as well as my body.
2010 is ending on an unexpected note. I will be returning to my home town where my support system awaits. This has been a profound desire of mine ever since the year began. However, the determining factor was not quite what I had in mind. Never in a million years did I see this in my future. The victim of sexual battery. The girl who lost everything. I’m speechless.
This pain that came in all different forms momentarily crippled me. I’d be kidding myself if I said I went unaffected by the trauma. But, one things for sure…I grew from it all. I moved past the pain with optimism as my guide. I never once lost the smile on my face or the hope in my heart.
This is not a post that screams for sympathy, nor does it possess any intellectual quote or life lesson. My words speak of truth and triumph. This is maturity, documented in it’s most purest form. These words are tangible evidence that I have in fact accepted reality and chose to put it behind me. With a new year comes new opportunities. The year 2010 will forever be engraved in my memory, not as a shadow that hinders my happiness, but a simple reminder of where I’ve been and how far I have come. This is the end of one chapter, and the start of something new.
